"Isn't it nice?"
I walked along the stone stairs, and I could't stop remembering.
"Isn't what nice?"
I promised that I was done crying. Then again, I suck at keeping promises.
"Just this. Sometimes I wish that we could stay like this forever."
I lowered my head as I continued, even though no one was there to see the tears streak down my face. It didn't feel like that long ago. Though, I guess it hadn't been.
"Why can't we then? I plan to stay by your side for the rest of my life."
Between the two of us she had always been more realistic. What can I say? I'm a romantic. Always have been more hopeful than necessary. Hell, a small part of me refuses to believe I'm going to die. A very small part.
"Things change Roy, you know that. I'll be gone one day and you'll have to accept that. All of us will die sooner or later."
This had been after she had met Sagari. She must have known. Izzy had to have known.
"Yeah? Then I choose later."
I've always been so naive. We don't choose when we die. When death comes, we have to accept it. Each of us have a path, each of us our own story. As with any path or story, there will always be an end. As I stood there, my time was ticking away. As I type this, it ticks away. A little morbid? Yes. True? Yes.
Valentine's day brings loneliness. Honestly Valentine's day hasn't sucked this much for a long time. I was in Toronto visiting Izzy's grave until last night. It may have not been the best idea, it left me depressed. I miss my family, my friends, I miss Izzy, hell I even miss Quinn.
I have no idea where I'm going, what I'm going to do, and how long I'll last from this point. At least I could leave Alice with good people. I wouldn't drag her down with me. Skye is still a child, but he's a good kid. I know he'll take good care of her.
I'm only twenty years old, is it possible to be too old for this shit?
All I know is that I'm tired, so tired........
