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Sunday, May 18, 2014

Fuck

This is getting ridiculous. The rate at which I've been encountering proxies is growing, and fast. Before it had been one proxy a week, two if I was just unlucky. But it's gotten to the point, where I'm encountering four, sometimes five every week. God damn masks...in the crowds everyday. But what doesn't make any sense is that they don't seem to draw any attention from the people around them. It's like they're not even there. Always watching me, even when I don't see any, I know that they're watching me from somewhere, somehow. 

Sleep has been impossible as of late because of this. I haven't slept in nearly a week. The constant paranoia combined with the sleep deprivation is driving me insane. When the proxy aren't around, he is. The Faceless fucker....in the corner of my vision are just in broad daylight. I know that I'm the only one that sees him, because no one else even glances his way. But the most confusing part of all of this? Is the fact that he hasn't made a move. He hasn't attempted to harm me, nor have the proxy. Why? What does he want?

I've been on the move so much lately that I haven't found time to post, or check the other blogs. Until today, that is. So I was shocked to find that Wolf is dead. No, shock is not the right word. Somehow I knew it was bound to happen sooner or later. Sometimes I think that proxies have a higher death rate than us runners. All I felt was sorrow and then anger...and then simply emptiness. At having one of my closest friends ripped away from me once again by the faceless bastard. Someone who helped me so much since all of this has started. 

I'll miss Wolf, but life goes on, there is not time for me to mourn.

I'll post again as soon as I can.

3 comments:

  1. I can't say I know much about why the boss does anything most of the time, dude, but maybe he's just watching because he doesn't have to do anything else.

    I used to think there was a little more security in being a proxy, but now I'd say the death rate is about the same. I've learned that no place, no side and no one is safe in this shitstorm.

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    1. Hm...when put that way, that's kind of disturbing. I don't like being entertainment. Being entertainment to a tall faceless business man, though? That's beyond creepy.

      No, I suppose that no one is safe. Even the proxy have to worry about their masters. I knew that Wolf would die eventually, as is all of our fates. I guess I just hoped that I would die before she did, so that I wouldn't have be around when it finally did happen. She was smarter than I, and probably a lot more cautious. So her dying before me, the guy that continuously runs straight into obvious traps? It's a surprise if nothing else.

      I can only hope that you and the others don't share her fate, at least...not anytime soon.

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    2. Yeah it was a big fucking surprise to us too

      It didn’t matter how smart or careful Wolf was because she was loyal to the boss and she cared about us. She chose to die to protect us from that thing the priest was trying to bring through

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